Not Fade Away

SAPPY ALERT!!! 

Okay, so I've had these thoughts a lot lately and have kept them to myself but I am just going to go ahead and put them down because it's so refreshing to put things in writing plus I'm sure there will come a time when I'll need to remember these feelings . . .

I am so incredibly in love with K. I am so often overwhelmed with my feelings for him that tears will swell into my eyes and I'm filled with love from toes to head . . . honestly, at least once a week. (The rest of the time, not so much ;)

Seriously though, I think that I am so overwhelmed with these feelings  because I was just really caught of guard when we came together two years ago August. We had both moved on with our lives and lived 1200 miles apart,  literally and in some ways figuratively, at least that was my initial reaction to him expressing his feelings for me.

I just could not have been more floored when K starting telling me how much he'd cared for me through the years as we sat on my cabin's porch swing at 3:00 a.m. on the first Friday of the Fair. I could tell, despite the hour and the booze, that he had seriously thought a lot about this conversation and knew what he wanted to say. Whether he'd planned the words ahead of time, I don't know, but I do know they were perfect in every way. He told me he knew I was jaded and had been hurt, as had he, but that we both deserved better and he knew that if I would give him a chance he'd be the best man he could for me. He knew he could make me happy.  He also said that he knew we lived miles apart but that he knew he wanted me in his life and if he had to settle for just friends he would, but that he knew he wanted more than a friendship with me. Oh he just went on and on and I'm sure I fell in love with him right then and there, but of course did not process it all until weeks later. I think it was a done deal when K booked a flight back to Mississippi within a month of leaving for a quick weekend visit. (He normally came back to Mississippi once a year, sometimes twice.) He really was determined to get through to me the depth of his feelings and commitment to me, if I would just let him in. . . . and of course I did and haven't looked back!

Skip ahead one year and 11 months later and a move out West and here we are, as in love as two adults could be and making it work through all of life's obstacles. It's not all love, love, and happy tales but that's what I love about our story even more. It's of course been a long and bumpy road(which sometimes actually caved in!)  Although, as K likes to remind me, if it wasn't for him and his perseverance we would probably, most decidedly not have come together. 

I am so blessed with his love and support, it is an amazing feeling. Of course the cynic in me keeps waiting on the shoe to drop, but I honestly see a long, happy life with K. I'll have random thoughts about potential obstacles in our path and I always, either through a conversation with K or an internal reality check, come back to us working it out and working together to keep what we have regardless of what comes our way.  It is all so refreshing, given the relationships/marriages I'm more familiar with as well as just my general outlook on loving relationships for the majority of my life.  I pray that we'll always be so strong and supportive for one another.