Friday, May 28

Sooo much to tell

I have so so many updates and things I want to get down in writing and I have just done a poor job of getting on that.  I've started working again doing the contract doc review stuff and now I'm squeezing in a quick update that won't have the details and thoughts that I wish to relate but OH WELL! 

I think I'll work backwards.  I've already mentioned the job, and not to let this mention pass lightly- YES, it is a paycheck and I am ecstatic!  There's potential for this project to last up to 4 weeks.  Finally, Dix will get to the vet. 

I've posted the pics of my new niece, MMH, born 1:51 p.m., May 19th.  8 lbs 3 oz  21 inches and full head of black hair.  The truest form of blessing from God is being a part of a new life coming into this world!  I just can't even imagine what it must be like as a mom in those moments. 

A couple weekends back I did a volunteer project at a State park for Saturday morning.  It was one of the first times that I truly felt like "this" is "my" town.  I had the front top off the Jeep and it was a beautiful morning.  K and I had spent Friday, as he was off, exercising and grocery shopping and grilling out on the back porch.  The drive into the Foothills from our house, which is only about a 10 minute drive, was just gorgeous.  The mountains are green and the sky is blue!  I enjoyed the project and was glad I took the plunge and didn't back out since I was on my own for it (K had to work).  Also, other big news from that weekend was I bought a bicycle at a yard sale two houses down for $30.  A horrible yellow color but otherwise seems to be in great condition considering.  K had just fixed up his tire on his (free, awesome, Schwinn Continental) bicycle and is starting to ride it to the light rail station some days for work.  He just happened to see the ones down the street and 10 minutes later, I had a bicycle.  Funny thing was I had said before the move that I was really wanting to get one, but I'd just wait and try to find one when I got out to Colorado at a yard sale.  What do ya know, I did! 

Also, we had one of the best times a few weekends back in Estes Park for a (FREE) Jazz Festival and Art Walk.  I believe I mentioned our plans in a previous post and I do have some good pictures that I'll put up.  The weather was a little chilly, as we had just had a fairly big snow for May and the mountains were blanketed in white; although, we did not get rained on and the wind was not out of control (as it has been all month . . . 50 - 75 mph winds last Monday).  Anyway, we just LOVED the setting at Estes and stayed in the most awesome place ever.  We were (well, at least I was) already planning anniversary trips to this Inn.  It would be perfect for when any of our friend and family come visit for a trip up to Rocky Mountain National Park and a night in Estes.  Some of the rooms have full kitchens and they pretty much all have a REAL fire place, as well as a great view.  There were elk drippings everywhere (which is a cool thing because that means the elk come right up to the door basically) ha.  We didn't see any while there but the very friendly and personable owner said they had just been down the day before and he wouldn't be surprised if they were jigging to the Jazz later (well, he didn't use those words exactly)!  Anyway, we ended up meeting the coolest two couples that were staying in the two rooms next to us.  They were retired and had moved to Fort Collins in the last few years and said the four of them had been doing this same Jazz Festival for (I think they said) the last four years.  They had planned to hang out and grill at the Inn (which provided several gas grills at each of the buildings on the property).  K ended up going to the store and grabbing us something to thrown on with their steaks and all six of us sat on the patio and just talked and talked.  You would have never guessed there was such an age gap between us.  K hung with the men around the grill, who had bonded instantly with him as they walked up while he was popping a PBR open, of which they were a fan.  I talked with the women and eventually the food was done and we all retreated to our rooms for our dinner.  It could not have been more perfect- seriously.  K and I sat up, drank champagne, listened to the ipod, and just talked and talked into the early morning hours.  It was a wonderful night.  The next morning, one of the ladies came knocking on the door and brought me a cup of fresh brewed coffee :)  I don't usually reveal names but since I really don't know any other identifiers and that would invade their privacy, one couple's name was Jack and Dianne- ha.   Somehow it came up that dad and I haven't talked since February (though we have since had a one minute interchange) and the one of the men/fathers, who had potentially gone through a similar experience with his daughter but for the fact that his wife sat him down and said "You have two choices, you can either isolate her or you can chill out," to which he had clearly chosen to chill, was so concerned for mine and dad's relationship and even hugged me as he went off to bed.  Sometimes, actually a lot of times, people, particularly strangers will just astonish me.  I love having those chance encounters with people, who leave lasting impressions on you but yet you never know their last names. 

Oh, one other weird weather thing that happened this week was some parts of Denver were covered in hail that actually looked like a snow storm had moved through.  It was golf ball size, if not bigger.  It wasn't in our area but it truly is nuts out here when it comes to the weather and by far is always a popular topic of discussion. 

I believe I'm caught up on the happenings with me.  I do have pictures, of course.  We should have a nice Holiday weekend here, though nothing too big planned.  Hope to catch a Rockies game, finally, as well as go to a few local events and maybe a farmers market. 

Wednesday, May 26

From my Niece today via Text Msg

****I edited the names to initials otherwise it was all her!  How sweet is she!!



------ MMS ------
Sent: May 26, 2010 2:17 PM

Hey Ant are you having a ok day. How are you and K.  What are yall doing. And how is your weck job going and how is your inturvus going how is Dixie by the way. Mom is criyeing for you we I mnt I get to go to 2 grade I  am exsited  were you exsited  to go to 2 grade becuse I relly am wurnt you. I love you ant C love MP. 
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Tuesday, May 11

April - 1st of May Pictures

We had a good April! Rockies started their season and we went
downtown for opening weekend, though haven't gone into the stadium
yet. Got to see Robert Earl Keen in Vail, amongst a few snow
flurries. Hung out with A for Shakedown Street at Quixotes and caught Dirty Dozen at the Bluebird just last weekend. AND
I got my first paycheck :)

This weekend we are going to Estes Park to catch a Jazz Festival and Art Walk in downtown Estes. Staying the night in a little Inn and
planning to hike through Rocky Mountain National Park on Sunday.
Right now they are forecasting 1-2 feet of snow in Estes for tomorrow
and temperatures are barely going to be in the 50s by Saturday. It
should be beautiful (and chilly)!

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Sunday, May 9

Officially official

Friday I declared my residency in Colorado.  In other words, I got my CO license and registered to vote.  Having finally received some income from the state, I decided it was time.  So I have officially "surrendered" my Mississippi license.  The next step will be my car tag and insurance, which will both be due in July.  I hope the car tags are cheaper here than in Hinds County, Mississippi.  I could have almost paid the jeep off by now for what I paid for my car tag in two years in Hinds County. 

The DMV was of course an interesting experience.  All walks of life, literally, given that one woman had a baby rabbit in there at one point.  K and I both took care of our stuff and were out in a less than three hours.  Not bad for a DMV trip and truthfully the people were polite and moved folks right along in as best way as possible.

Friday evening, on a whim and having not yet returned home, we decided to head to the Bluebird Theater and catch Dirty Dozen Brass Band, with Frogs Gone Fishing.  We stopped by Goosetown Tavern before heading over and the bar tender remembered us from about a month ago, which was a nice feeling given we've only been in there a handful of times.  Also, K had met a guy who does security at the Bluebird one of the last times we were there who just happened to be from Meridian, MS (I think, definitely somewhere in MS) and he spoke like old pals.

The music was great and felt like we were in warm, humid New Orleans and not chilly Denver!  I've got some good pictures and will upload them later today, hopefully. 

Yesterday morning was so beautiful.  We ended up going to Red Rocks to run the bleachers of the amphitheater, which equals a 5k.  Took the top off the jeep for the first time this season, well at least the driver's side flap.  We had the doggies with us because we were stopping at the dog park over that way after a workout.  Everyone enjoyed themselves and had a great workout. 

Just as we were about to relax at home, a friend invited us over for grilled chicken and hotdogs and so we topped off the day with a relaxing BBQ with a few friends. 

K is working today and I am going to catch up with my Southern Living and Sunset (west version of SL) and enjoy the 70 degree weather before we go back to chances of snow on Wednesday.  We did wake up to snow on the cars just last Thursday.  May in Colorado is definitely a tease for warm weather.  I guess in reality it is more of an actual Spring than what we have in MS.  We basically just jump of cold and rainy to 85-90 degree weather in a matter of a week there. 

Friday, April 30

Updates.

Well, the "Motivation" post didn't help one bit to be honest.  I spent the rest of that week in a low, low place and did not really get one thing accomplished.  Probably the most helpless I had felt since being here about job and money.  Although, as always K stood by me and came through by getting us out of the house for a night in Vail and a Robert Earl Keen show!  We both really needed the change of scenery and having not been to Vail yet, when a friend called and said we had a good deal on a room and Robert Earl was playing a free show, we said we're in.  I do have pics that I'll post soon.

Well, after a change of scenery and some quality time with K would you believe I got a call back about a contract job that I had interviewed for a few weeks ago!  YAY!!!!! So, for the last two weeks I have been working for this company who essentially works with a big corporation's in-house legal to provide e-discovery services.  Basically, I've been reviewing thousands of documents on the computer.  It's been GREAT.  Ha.  The office is in the Qwest building downtown and I'm on the 22nd floor, with a beautiful view of the city.  It's worked out for the most part for K and I to commute together to work, well both taking our perspective trains to work but riding to the light rail together - which has been fun.  I've enjoyed working so much and have met some nice people.  However, the job is most definitely coming to a close by mid-week next week at the latest and I really don't get a sense that they will have such a big job again soon.  What I can tell from talking to the attorneys around me, they pretty much have a full group of contract attorneys that predominately handle the workload.  But the best thing out of this is I have renewed hope and attitude to get out and get more involved, even if it is just volunteering AND the paycheck will get me by for another month- Whew.

Though May is literally just around the corner, we had snow yesterday as well as last week and there is snow in the forecast for tomorrow.  We will have the lowest lows for the next few days that we've had in weeks.  I'm so ready for the warmer weather, though I am constantly assured by K that it will definitely be TOO hot soon enough and I should not wish away these cool nights.  There are numerous festivals and music shows coming up in the next few months that we're hoping to get too, as well as camping and hiking and traveling out of the city as much as possible!  Really looking forward to the next few months and know that I'll LOVE the summers here. 

Tuesday, April 13

Motivation

Today I am angry, sad, frustrated, feeling hopeless, scared, and ultimately unmotivated.  So in an effort to get control of all of these feelings, I Googled motivational poems because I needed some cheesy inspiration and when in need what do we 20th Century adults do, Google.  Here's what I found:

  • 1st inspiring poem, because I did leave my comfort zone but I have failed to capitalize on all the positive changes that has brought me.  I recognize that I'm "waiting" in a sense, for the rest of the puzzle to fall into place, rather than putting in the difficult work of making it happen for myself. 


My Comfort Zone
Unknown

I used to have a comfort zone
where I knew I wouldn't fail.
The same four walls and busywork
were really more like jail.

I longed so much to do the things I'd never done before,
But stayed inside my comfort zone and paced the same old floor.

I said it didn't matter that I wasn't doing much.
I said I didn't care for things like commission checks and such.
I claimed to be so busy with the things inside the zone,
But deep inside I longed for something special of my own.

I couldn't let my life go by just watching others win.
I held my breath; I stepped outside and let the change begin.
I took a step and with new strength I'd never felt before,
I kissed my comfort zone goodbye and closed and locked the door.

If you're in a comfort zone,
afraid to venture out,
Remember that all winners were at one time filled with doubt.
A step or two and words of praise can make your dreams come true.

Reach for your future with a smile; success is there for you! 

  • 2nd Poem, because I am feeling like I have quit trying . . . well, I am I feel beaten more or less
Don't Quit (awesome motivational poem)
Unknown

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit.


  • 3d, and lastly because I should just stop the cheesiness now. . . I know I am my own worst enemy with my pessimism.  I don't mean to push blame on my parents, but optimism was not EVER present in our household so to be positive is such a chore for me.  It is literally exhausting, physically and mentally.  Although, I truly can not stand being the Negative Nancy in the room and honestly, I feel like I do a fairly good job of keeping a positive outlook for my friends and family.  I just simply fail with myself. 

Promise Yourself
The Optimist Creed

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.
To make all your friends feel like there is something in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living person you meet a smile.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, and too strong for fear, and to happy to permit the presence of trouble.


All of these and a WHOLE lot more are at this one-stop shop website for motivation and inspiration.  Though sometimes it feels silly and simple and inconsequential, especially in a world of constant upheaval and daily doses of real sorrows, it is still important to admit that we may need help and to allow that simplicity and silliness to be OKay to feel and to nurture in whatever means necessary.  So, today I am going to write (not print, or copy/paste) this passage down and read it as often as need be until I have a job.
Motivation is the ability to get yourself to take action regardless of whether you feel like it or not. One of the main reasons people fail to achieve their goals is because of inaction. It's easy to say or think about what you are going to do but actually doing what you say takes commitment. It's not that people have a hard time taking action once. Anyone can motivate themselves to get to the gym to workout one time. It's being able to consistently take action that is the challenge for most people.
In order to have the motivation to continually do what needs to be done in order to produce the results that you want in your life, you need the right tools. The tools on this site will help you take that initial step as well as help you keep going when you feel discouraged. Once those actions become a habit, taking action becomes easy.
 

Friday, April 9

Absolutely beautiful day

My day was made by 1:00 p.m. when my 76 lb four-legged sweetie decided to plop herself down, across my chest as I laid in the backyard enjoying the sunshine.   . . . and that is the picture of me trying to capture this.

Oh today has been another struggle between being naturally happy with the beautiful weather and the opportunity to do whatever I please with my day.  Yet at this point, all I want to do is get up and go to a job.  As I sat outside reading last month's (or the one before) Real Simple, that was all about making time for yourself all I could think was "I am sick and tired of having "time for myself".  How ironic, I know.  In case anyone was keeping score, I got two rejection letters today and was not "selected" for four other positions that I applied to, including one that I actually did have an interview.  Another week has ended and I STILL do not have a job.

I did try to find organizations that I can begin volunteering with.  Although, the online application with the Denver Public Library had a glitch and it was not working so I will have to go in and complete that one.  All in all, it has been a frustrating week on that front.

However, it is shaping up to be a gorgeous weekend here and K is off so I know we'll make the most of it.  Again, I am glad I am here but I am steadily loosing faith that a job will come.

Wednesday, April 7

I knew better

Than to make such a bold statement that we had seen the last of the snow.  K has seen it snow in May, and gone snowboarding on July 4th before.  Anyway, we woke up to about 3 inches of snow this morning; although, it is steadily melting away! 

Monday, April 5

Easter Sunrise

K and I went to the 63d Easter Sunrise Service at Red Rocks yesterday
and it was a beautiful experience. I was so surprised at the number
of people there, but it could not have been a more perfect morning to
be outside for such an event, espcially considering last year they had
snow and rain. We got some great pictures of sunrise at Red Rocks and
I was so glad we made the effort to get up so early and go.
After a pecan waffle (for me) and cornbeef hash (for K) breakfast at
the neighborhood cafe, we returned home to put on an Elk roast (thanks
to our friend AB's 200 lb kill earlier in the year) and take the dogs
to Washington Park, all before 9:30! It was one of the prettiest days
in Colorado yet. We enjoyed the people (and dog) watching at Wash
Park, while the doggies made some friends and got some exercise. K
and I got a little exercise too when we rented the surrey for an hour
and biked around the park...it was pretty hilarious but a good workout
nonetheless. It was so refreshing seeing all the diverse groups of
people out taking advantage of the day and reason to gather and have
some good times in the sunshine.
Hope everyone else had an enjoyable day as well!